My True Feelings Poem by Jeronica Alston

I tried to be nice
And do everything with a smile
But now I realize
I was only your clown

What I said didn’t matter
How you acted absurd
But every time you said you loved me
They were merely only words

You claimed you loved me
With every part of your heart
With every other word you said
“Baby, we will never part.”

BS is what I say now
You were full of it now and then
And frankly the patience that I have for you
Is really wearing thin

You can care less about my life
Or the pain that I’ve been through
And everything I’ve said or done
Was to only benefit you

I sat up nights and days
And cried myself to sleep
Thinking that the love you said you had
Would somehow go deep

I’ve done things for you
I said I’d never do
Me being foolish thinking
What you said was true

I know you be saying
“Them my boys for life”
But what you were to blind to realize
Was that they were stabbing you in the back with a knife

Some of my girls were no better
And I’ve been realized that
And the way I feel right now
I would never go back

Jeronica Alston