My Version Of Pain Poem by If you look closer you can see that my eyeliner's running XD

He hurt me in a way unseen
And some how I was stuck inbetween
But not at least I've cleared my head
And realized its hard to be alive and easy to be dead

Abuse is what they called it, even though there where no bruses on my arms,
I did not understand it; when they said it is not the outside he harms

So confused was I,
when I found my will to die
but when they explained why that day
my lifes confusion was wiped away

I understood it was emotional pain,
the kind that drives a person insane,
So he yelled and denied it all
I did not listen; I let his words fall
I knew why I felt different from the people outside
Exposed at last he had no where to hide.

Depression and passion too control
I screamed I yelled I was on a roll

I was hurt in a way most unforgiving
Cuz he made me believe that I was not worthy of this life that I'm living
Eventually I was tired of feeling
So I made myself numb when I should've been healing

Time rode on a head
I kept inside my past instead
And so what did I think all those nights I cried myslef to sleep
when no one held me when the razor cut too deep?

Well I realized he was no father of mine
I hoped and cried; I wished him dead in time
A curse is what he gave and so a curse is what I'll give back
I'll deny I knew my father and runaway even though I havent got a thing to pack.

and this is my version of what hurts me in the world floating by
my heads so screwed up that by the age of 6 I hoped to die
so I dont think that I could ever truly live again like it used to be
no mother, and no father, god why did you let this happen to me?