My Worst Enemy Poem by Philip St. Cyr

I am afraid of my worst enemy
You appear as a nightmare in my day dreams
a shadow of the past that follows me
It leaves me grimacing, trembling
afraid to embrace the face of fear
It's haunted, undaunted
full of secrets, lies, and regret
Tell me: Why do you play games?
Is it pleasure or pain for you to hold me with disdain?
I tried to like the person you are
because no one else could wear your shoes
but It's so difficult, so disturbing…
you are so suffocating and I am here suffering
I can't be your only companion,
simply because you feel abandoned
I feel as though I need to gather my thoughts,
you are someone real, who can't be bought
and still at times you chase people away
afraid that they won't accept you,
that they'll neglect you
and who wants to feel rejected?
I understand that you are scared…
I'm just trying to protect you

I am afraid of my worst enemy
Yet it's hard it's hard to believe, that at times I'm intrigued
You are like poison in my veins,
but we are one in the same
It's a love/hate relationship
and I wish that I could jump ship
No one can see what I see,
that's why we make the perfect team you and me;
One more of us makes three
They cannot comprehend how your mind works,
they only see the spark,
while I see the fireworks
But together we are more like dynamite,
simply dynamic…
That must be the reason you are by yourself,
acting as if there's is no else
acting as if you don't have a care in the world
or maybe it's the blood, sweat, and tears you shed,
for a life filled with regret
and times that you just want to forget
Don't brush it away;
I can see the water inside your eyes
I know you love me deep down inside,
behind the hate, and underneath the pride
you are afraid because I'm your worst enemy
But You can smile, I'm also your best friend
me, myself, and I