N.A. Poem Poem by Cody A. Buckmaster

I STARTED BUILDING MY PRISON
AT THE AGE OF THIRTEEN
I ASKED MYSELF WHY
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

BUT NO ANSWER CAME
SO I STARTED TO SEEK
I WAS DARED TO TRY DRUGS
AND DIDNT WANT TO SEEM WEAK

I TRIED ALL I COULD FIND
UNTIL I BUMPED INTO SPEED
MY SEARCH WAS NOW OVER
I JUST FOLLOWED ITS LEAD

METH KEPT ME ORGANIZED
MY WHOLE LIFE WAS LISTED
BUT AS I LOOK BACK
I SEE HOW TIGHT I WAS TWISTED

I KNEW I WAS DIFFERENT
JUST DIDNT KNOW WHY
SATAN TOLD ME I WAS WORTHLESS
AND I BOUGHT INTO HIS LIE

I LOST ALL CONTROL
OF MY OWN UNDERSTANDING
THIS DRUG I LOVED DEEPLY
BECAME SO DAMN DEMANDING

CONSUMED MOSTLY BY FEAR
ANGUISH AND SELF-PITY
I STILL THOUGHT I COULD QUIT
BUT I HAD LOST THE ABILITY

I THOUGHT, GO SEE A SHRINK
I CANT STOP 'CAUSE IM NUTS
THEN OF COURSE THERE WAS SUICIDE
IF I ONLY HAD THE GUTS

SO, NOTHING HAD WORKED
NOW ISOLATION-MY BEST FRIEND
THE DARKER THE BETTER
BUT THATS NOT THE END...

ITS TAKEN ME FOREVER
BUT MY TOMB IS NOW COMPLETE
WHAT BOTHERS ME NOW?
A RAY OF LIGHT AT MY FEET

WITH AN AUDIBLE VOICE
IT SAID MY WHOLE LIFE WAS A LIE
THIS DRUG I HAVE WORSHIPED
HAS SENT ME HERE TO DIE

MY EYES WERE THEN OPENED
AND I STARTED TO PRAY
I THEN LOOKED BACK TOWARDS THE LIGHT
AND GOD POINTED THE WAY

I CAN NOW TRY TO BE A FATHER
MOM HAS BACK HER REAL SON
THIS PROGRAM GOD SHOWED ME
IS PRIORITY NUMBER ONE

MY LIFE NOW HAS A MEANING
SO THANKS TO GOD AND N.A.
IVE MADE A CHOICE NOT TO USE
'JUST FOR TODAY'

My father made this poem