Nearly Gone Poem by Ash Tear

why does this dreadful thing they call life have to go on
and right in front of me sits a knife
it sits there taunting me
saying end your life with me plz plz
okay i agree i'll do it
i take the knife
and slice my inner elbow open with one movement
as it bled my smile grew
my fingers ran thru the puddle of blood
i giggled a childish sound
my mom heard this sound and checked
she screamed
i got confused why is she scream i wondered
she pick up her phone and dialed 911
they came and made the bleeding stop
i screamed a tormented sound
why did she save me i'll just do it again i thought