Never Forgotten Poem by misty wright

Nothings ever really forgotten
It's always there
Haunting you
Because it never goes away
Your memories
Your fears
I still remember the day
Grandma told me my
Nanny was going to die soon
I busted into tears
And wondered
Why noone could help her
Everyone said i'd live through this
But i knew i couldn't bear it all alone
It was to much pain
I just couldn't deal with it
So i went to my room
And thought for awhile
Wondered what i was to do then
All these memories flooded back
And i thought of my brother
The poor, sweet, innocent
Little soul of his
With all that pain in his eyes
That i felt i'd caused
I couldn't live with that
So i took that shiny, metal
Escape from life
And made my decision
I did something i thougth i'd never do
I aimed for ending it all
The memories and the
Pain flowed from me so quickly
But i didn't feel a thing
It's like i was numb to it all
I knew it would cause everyone more sorrow
But i couldn't live knowing
How i'd hurt them all
I'd hurt the people i loved
And i'd lost the people i loved
I had nothing left
But when they all walked in
And saw me laying there
I wondered what i'd done
I felt something i hadn't felt in awhile
The guilt that was locked up
Deep within my soul
I saw their tears
And heard their crys
I just couldn't understand
Why they cared if i died
When i was the one who put them through hell
I wish i'd had a second chance
To change what i did
Or at least to say i'm sorry
And goodbye