Not Afraid Poem by misty wright

i know how it feels to wanna die
how it hurts to smile
how you hurt yourself on the outside
to try and kill everything on the inside
im trapped in this thing called life
with no way out

i cry myself to sleep at night
and hope to never awake
but when morning comes
there i am again
staring at the ceiling
wondering why i didnt die
i dont want to be me anymore
i want to end this pain that is killing me
all i want is for it to stop
but no matter where i go
no matter what i do
its always in my mind
that constant sorrow that follows me
it wont leave me alone
why cant i just get away?

i look at these scars
and they remind me of my past
but dont worry i will be ok
just as soon as i slit my wrist this one last time
i lay there ever so peaceful
while the blood runs free
and reassure myself that im no longer afraid
ive found my escape
hear me now as i cry out im not afraid to die

now bury me with these perfect scars upon my wrist.