Never Thought I Would Do This Poem by Makayla Straight

The pain from my nightmare was unbearable
I woke up today in much worse pain
Knowing you don't want me
Knowing that all my efforts
It was all a waste
I don't know how it came to this
But I know I need to protect myself
Since you cannot be the man and do it yourself
I need to walk away from the pain
Never thought you would let me walk out just like that
Always thought you would at least put some kind of fight up
I thought you were my prince charming
To come save my day
Rescue me from the dangers lurking
But the only thing to save me from is yourself
Guess time does change everything
Just thought change would be for the better
Couldn't guess that it would hurt this much
Didn't know I would want to roll over and die
Im not one to place blame on anyone
But god damn why did you do this to me
And why did I let you?
What happened to my self respect?
I did everything in my power to be the best
Guess it wasn't enough for you
You still picked all those females over me
You know what makes the situation worse
I am about to have your son
But I guess it is whatever to you
Because you don't give a damn
I would think I deserve more respect
But I guess in your eyes Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy because Im leaving you
And I wont look back
I wont get hurt
I protecting my son and myself