No Tears When I Need Them Poem by Vision Ghost

So much considered and never felt in tongue
Too damned confident in pride for so long
Are my words from mind or heart I don’t know
Not sure if I should just sit here or else go

Too much said in accordance to an answer
An answer I had to give from lethal lancer
Of your bitterness to which I feel your spear
Only to acknowledge that which I feel is fear

The rain outside is inviting from this hate
When deeper feelings decay so to berate
Gone suddenly from your eyes is your love
Shot in a moment when I killed the dove

Was this Cupids arrow or now poison dart?
I say too much but this will tear me apart
Came on too strong, too soon, too early
Is it my fault I’ve too much love given freely?

Maybe step outside and cleanse the memories
Try to forget and re-invent unlocked notorieties
But “never” was forever a word I can’t handle
Loosing myself again as your hopeless disciple

Feel the rage boil inside and I scream finalities
Guessing that it’s over in these complexities
No crime committed when I feel only emotion
Somehow lost in the conclusion of this devotion

Shattered, disconnected from voice, mind, heart
An indifference of expression so plays its part
I express in useless words but this painful stem
Finding now I have no tears when I need them