Not A Day Goes By! Poem by MaiLoan Lee

Not a day goes by that I don't think about my lovely Ansel Baby Boy.
Holiday Season arrives with endless memories I once had with you.
The lights, the decorations, and the gifts are remembrance of every precious moment you gave Me with your existence, alone! Cheery people are passing by as if nothing has happened!
But in my reality, there was something incomprehensible occurred.
What had emerged, has changed my entire world; and my only world with you had collapsed within the nano second you left Me.

I would give everything I have, including my life in exchange for another moment with you!
Life has had begun to be meaningless when that sad Autumn day came,
what I have now, are only 5,475 cherished days I had with you.

My Lovely Darling Boy, if I knew those are the only times I had with you, I would stay awake all days and nights - do nothing else - but only to hold you in my arms every second of those days.
You were and will forever are my life, my light, and my breathe to get by this suddenly saddened world.

By Mom - Orange County - Saturday 11: 00 am 12/22/12