Not For Me Poem by Amber Glistener

Yes, my hopes have been high.
Will I sob when they disappoint me?
Yes, my eyes are tired,
Will I sob when I cannot close them?
Yes, my dreams scare me.
Will I sob when they do not leave?
Yes, my friends are careless.
Will I sob when they run away?
Yes, life is hard.
Will I sob when I cannot move forward?

NO.
I do not live life for me.
When my hopes have disappointed me,
I will forget my hopes and encourage others.
When my eyes are tired and I cannot close them,
I will use the time they are open wisely.
When my nightmares do not leave me,
I will curse them and go on with my life.
When my friends run away in scorn from me,
I will teach them that better friends can be found.
When my life is hard and I cannot move forward,
I KEEP MOVING FORWARD.

My life is not a sob story,
or a dramatic novel or movie.
My life is not a bad dream,
or a slow song that makes you cry.

NO.
I do not live life for me.

I do not live life to pay taxes and die,
or to finish college, support a family and go,
or to find true love and be together with them,
or to make my good dreams real.

NO.
I live life to help others get through.
I live life to become a shield.
I live life to become a sword.
God's shield.
God's sword.
And with my body
And with my mind,
I will be that shield.
And with my actions,
And with my tongue,
I will be that sword.
For no, I do not live life for me.
I live life for God and to him "ordinary" is like an insult.

No longer will I accept ordinary,
or average,
or regular,
or even normal.

I am God's tool who must be worthy of him,
extraordinary,
above-average,
irregular,
abnormal.

To do that, I must not let myself be pushed lower and do things that only lowest of the low may do. I will only take pride in God's words and actions, and the actions and words of other's like me.
I am God's 100%,
never stopping,
never sobbing,
never unfaithful,
Follower.