Not Whole Poem by Amanda Austin

I feel like I need to cry
but I can't keep stopping the tears from escaping inside me
I feel like I'm bleeding inside
As I remember everything I tried so hard to hide
It's been so long yet it seems like yesterday
When everything I did and everywhere I went was like any other day
Now I'm laying here deep into the night,
My thoughts wandering back to old memories when all was right
I feel like someone in a foreign world
Trying to fit in where they just don't belong
The place I once called my home still captures my attetion
Friends I once called my own still appear in my dreams
And rest in my heart
Will I ever feel whole again

(1/23/09)