Nothing At All Poem by Suyash Saurabh Singh

NOTHING AT ALL

I dont want to die,
I dont want to live,
I dont want to sigh,
or take the sympathy that you give,
I am too grown up to be controlled,
I am too blown up to be consoled,
I am not hopeless and have no hope,
I am not depressed and I can't cope,
I had dreams but I've seen how they shattered,
I can't figure out what all have I earned?
the people I gave my time to,
to whom they have turned?
the relations and their memories,
are they all burnt?

I am too tired to be told to try,
I am too drained to be told to cry,
I am not just shattered or an easy thing to repair,
I am too closed at heart to open up for care,
I am not stabbed to die, cause I wasn't alive at the first place,
I wasn't competing with anyone but they knocked me out of the race,
I am not a poet, not even do I love writing this,
but there's no one to hold me tight and heal me with a kiss...

I was a child I remember, when I was alive,
I was a dreamer I remember, when I was alive,
I had faith in people I remember, when I was alive,
I could have died for them and was always ready to do so,
I talked them out of sadness and was always ready to do so,
I had no fears of future, no scars of past,
I don't remember how long my life did last!
Then I had it all for last 5 years,
and I am even done with the tears!

I don't want to die,
I don't want to live,
I dont want to sigh,
or take the sympathy that you give,
I am not listening to myself because I've no call,
This is not a poem, its just nothing at all!