Ode To Jacob Poem by Luna Moon

The taste of sweat,
The taste of tears.
The loss of days,
The loss of years.
It's bitter,
That much is true.
It sucks,
Not being with you.
Lonesome I am,
Too little, too late.
Voices in my head,
Love to hate,
Me,
Oh my,
Can't seem to grasp,
Why.
You hate me so,
But why?
I do not know.
The blood,
Boils under my skin.
I knew this would happen,
I knew you would win.
No one cares,
Not about me.
Though all I want,
Is to be the best I can be.
To see through my eyes,
And be content with their brown.
To smile with my teeth,
And try not to frown.
To give it my all,
No matter the past.
I'm trying to forget this,
This nightmare can't last.
To be expressive,
In actions and words.
And really care less,
If you find me absurd.
This lifelong lie,
Is hard to mistake.
I am a hypocrite,
And you are a fake.
Cover up those thoughts of you,
I feel your eyes,
They see right through,
Me,
Oh my,
Can't seem to grasp,
Why.
You hate me so,
But why?
I do not know.
Is it real?
Of course you say.
But can you be hateful,
Everyday?
Isn't it tedious?
To hate all the time?
I'd rather relax,
And hear the wind chime.
But I know deep down,
I hate that you hate me.
Because I love you,
Much more than they see.
Difficult to say,
And I hope you can tell.
That being this vulnerable,
Is my personal hell.
You inspire me,
Your figure a black cloak.
You laugh at me feelings,
But this isn't a joke.
Oh how our path changes,
With the wind's sad cries.
I know you think my feelings,
Are sad girlish lies.
Look in the mirror,
That horror can't be me.
But it is, it is!
For that's what I see.
No, it's you!
However the same.
You think you're so different,
But I share your pain.
Tears on your cheeks,
You wipe them away.
Just let them fall,
Crying's okay.
Burn and burn,
Your memories smoke.
The black fills your lungs,
And you start to choke.
I want to help,
And stay by your side.
I want you to be happy,
And fill you with pride.
Don't let me go,
I promise to shine.
You'll be happy and unhateful,
As long as you're mine.

-A personal note to Jacob:
I'm sorry.-