One Night Poem by Jennifer Hanson

Stab in the heart
Ive fallen apart
my blood spills
suicide kills
I'm a mistake
my last breath i will take
haven't cut for a while
but still i cant even force a smile
i hope your happy
you don't love me
my smile is my disguise
to hide the pain behind these eyes
Ive fallen to far to be found
i watch my blood drip onto the ground
my crimson body falls to the floor
I'm covered in my own pain, blood and gore
i thought i was going to be OK
that was until today
i thought things were actually going to be alright
that was until tonight
my vision is a blur
my death is what you prefer
I'm now short on breath
your the reason for my death
you lied
i cried
I'm a fool to think you care
your close to me your suppose to be there
so if another miracle happens to me
i hope that my fears will be set free
please don't cry
wipe your eyes
I'm not worth the tears and worrying
hell I'm not even worth burying
inhale
exhale
its painful to breathe
just hurry and kill me
either keep me here
or take away my misery
but please don't torture me like this
send my love a kiss
can someone tell me the truth before i die
am i loved or is that just another lie
i no longer feel
my scars will never heal
my chest is hurting
this is so surreal
stab me again
just so i can feel the pain
but i cant i just bleed more
Ive grown numb, now I'm unconscious on the floor
am i dead forever now
or will i be saved again somehow
at least i got to say goodbye
sorry it was my turn to die
don't anyone kill themselves over me
I'm not worth it, not worth anything
if i am missed at all
i will catch you when you fall
I'm sorry if i do live
its not my fault i believe