Pain Poem by Jessica LaDuron

no mere mortal can acknowledge the pain that i've had to endured
i have been living in a world filled with hate,
and all anyone can do is smile and nod
i am sick of all the questions i ma asked
all the answers i get to obvious question
the world is filled with dumb people like you
you can not face your demon
becasue teh biggest demon is yourself
he's sitting inside your head
plotting, thinking of ways to ruin my life, and your's
the looks that you've given me
once made my heart melt,
now they have driven me to teh core
where my soul sleeps in a cave,
surrounded by ice
my soul is to be forever trapped
in the icy fortress it calls home,
while you walk gaily* through the streets
as if you were the head honcho**
when merely,
you are a slave to all mankind

you know no boundries,
only the ones that keep me near
i am forever a slave to your dumbness
forever to follow your slanted steps
where you lead me into,
a place i fear to go
i have always pulled myself away,
knowing my limitations,
the regulations and the rules
i try not to notice, the looks of pure hatred
streaming through your eyes
for i don't think i could handle it
and you force me to say
that you are teh only holy and pure man alive,
when really you are nothing more than
a line in my book,
a slit on my wrist,
a man to my undying affection

*gaily-happily, not homosexually
** honch-tough guy, man of the house