Pain I Was Put Through Poem by Anna Hirschler

The pain he put me through still hurts today.
But he doesn’t know it.
I still love that boy with everything I am.
But he doesn’t care.
I sit in my room alone listening to music.
I think of what I could have had if I wasn’t still hung up on him.
I try to move on but everything I do reminds me of him.
He is the reason I am like this today.
Before him I was a happy sweet girl who was starting to have self confidence.
But he pulled me back to where I was before.
My friends say I should forget him.
But it’s not that easy.
They don’t know what he put me through.
Yes they are there for me for this but they don’t know my feelings.
Everyone just thinks im depressed and that is true.
But some days I just want to take a knife and end it all.
I would never do that because if I do he has won.
Yes I still hurt and most likely always will.
But I try with all my might to move on.
I still miss him every day and to me that is hard.
I try my best to push him out of my mind but every time I do something reminds me of his face or of his touch.
For the first time in my life I actually hate myself more then ever.
I hate the fact that he can’t love me anymore.
And I hate myself because I must have done something for him to not love me anymore.
God life is going to be hard for me from now on.
Because of the pain I was put through.