Pain Is My Gain Poem by kaitlyn baker

Pain is my gain. I cannot be hurt, yet i cannot be heald.
Aching inside and out. yet, i still have a doubt.
Insides bleed. yet, there is no need to plead.
Never goes away...it just stays there untill my spirit fades away
. Inside and out bleeds for you. yet, i'm just no need for you.
Suffering from depression everyday. You can smile, but i will hurt in everyway.
Moaning and groaning...crying out for help, hopeing for my pain to go away. yet, it just stays the same.
Yelling and begging hopeing it will come to an end. yet, my motions stop, and my heart bends.
Going to sleep...hopeing to forget about all my pain...yet, deep inside my knows that pain is my gain.
Aching all over again...knowing it will never come to an end...yet, deep down in my heart, im screaming 'pain is my gain'.
Inside of me just tells me i should just end it all...yet, i might behalusinating after all.
Never again will i be where i am...my spirit will be stareing down at you...even if you do not know who i am