Pain Reliever Poem by Joshua Mccoy

This is all my life has ever revolved around.

Helping daddy

He comes home angry and full of rage and paints out his expression upon my face with joy.

He never touches mommy anymore.

Only me.

I lay awake at night in his arms

Held by his thighs

And cry facedown into my pillow all night long

Mommy does nothing in fear of taking his bludging wrath

And little brother curls into a ball in the corner of our twin bedroom and cries to block out my screams as he enters in me and makes me bleed

The first night

Then less after each passing night

I make the hurt go away he says

I am his little angel and one he could never live without he says after leaving me a sticky mess

A job well done he whispers into my ear as I slowly rise from being bent over the bathroom sink every day before school

A routine installed painfully within me since the age of four

Once before work

Twice after work along with drunken kisses from his fists until I can barely breathe

Then all night bathing in daddy’s love until he tries out buried deep within

Day in and day out

The routine is etched into my skin

Body

And mind

Until daddy’s loving care is the vital normality my life cannot fully function without

I love my daddy

And he loves me

His life sapping blows and violent thrusts says so

This is all I am good for

Can anyone else tell me otherwise?