Passionate Waves Of Emotions Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Passionate waves of emotions
Crashing upon the shores of tomorrow
Tides of inner battles
The personal trials of sorrow
Searching for an ever changing seas of possibilities



Difference needed
Hopelessness keeps stopping each travels
Have faith upon this heart
This soul is more than my body could ever wish to be



Out of the safety net I crave
Storming self to be brave
Licking the wounds of yesterday
Past full of decay



Not playing any games
The line towards impressions too long
Made a trail towards golden truths
The light set in motion to vanquish any self-sorrow



Suffocation through the net of love's endurance
Tossed back again and again
Familiar vessels trolling
Brutal truths trying to take me back in



Fighting and fighting
To finally slip out of this control
Perhaps I will be rejected again
This time I want to be invisible
Or do I?



Tired, so tired
Sometimes, All I want to do is just let go
Too many rambling thoughts
Plague this mind
Only to descend
On a tailspin's woe



Yet, an unknown force always emerges
Something deep inside screaming out loud
A dimension, a nexus of self
Striving to crack through the confusion
Towards a peaceful journey
All from the deepest regions of within



I need to rest these eyes
Surrender these thoughts to a silenced standstill
Travel towards the sign of light
Feeling the warmness tingling up and down this spine
An epiphany so divine



To feel loved
The greatest feeling of them all
Never being judged
Being respected for who I truly am



I live on
The only death I encounter
Comes from within
But I always bring myself back
As I strengthen myself away from time borrowed
Letting the waters of fall into an eventual ocean
Forming currents into waves of a better tomorrow



Passionate waves of emotions
Crashing upon the shores of tomorrow
Tides of inner battles
The personal trials of sorrow
Searching for an ever changing seas of possibilities



All this water
And still learning to surf it all from within
Riding it all out in gallant strides
Feeling loved again, yet stronger than ever before
As these dreams shall be caught
Within the catcher of my heart



Yet, Will I ever be good enough?
Only time will tell
I have always given my all!



I should very well be good enough!
If only my reflection told a different story



I wish I was seen from inside out!
Then I would be truly known!



Who can/will see my truest of form?
May time be my guardian?
Guiding me to levels
For which I have never reached before



I belong amongst the calming waters
Of a sea song at its absolute strongest
Learning how to swim in deep
Never drowning ever again



Passionate waves of emotions
Flowing gently upon the shores of today
Still full of troubled waters
But the calm slowly takes all the pain away



I will struggle till I learn to swim, again
For good!
That is the only way!



Passionate waves of emotions
Shall be conquered and controlled
Not later but, today!
As tomorrow is not a promised day!



So where should I go from here?


A sign would be great to be seen!
By these eyes of the blue reflective sea



I am ready! Just you wait!


Believe in me!
That is all I have ever wanted, all this time!
An unlimited lover
That is what I have always wanted to be!



If I am accepted unconditionally by a path
Surely there will never be another
I give my heart out diligently
But what happens if I let it free?



I guess that is for me to ever know!
Or, I suppose maybe?



Who really knows?
I find that to be great
In the mystery of self as a whole



May the waves start to unfold!
Then let me venture within your soul
Then in rejoice, will you cry with me?



To self, a new journey
The adventure towards a fresh start
The destination I need to go to



Where to?
That is for the future to only know
The very future I call my own


But will this future be bought on a loan
I guess only fate truly knows


Even then
Who really knows?


Was I always meant to be alone?
Fate, Say it is not so!


Passionate waves of emotions
I am open
Course yourself in moderations
Through me
All in the name of love


Can anyone feel/see my soul?