Please Let Me Poem by Matthew Conkling

I just need to

have no feelings

so I won't have to keep repeating

the mistakes that I made

to care about all the hate

so I can keep myself from stealing

My light, my light


The happiness is fleeting

My world receding

nothing even matters anymore


Can't take another hit

Don't have another swig

but this might not endure



I just need to

have no feelings

so I won't have to keep repeating

the mistakes that I made

to care about all the hate

so I can keep myself from stealing

My light, my light


The sadness in life

mixed with all the strife

makes me anxious and unsure


so please help me god

save this poor sod

from what you have in store


I just need to

have no feelings

so I won't have to keep repeating

the mistakes that I made

to care about all the hate

so I can keep myself from stealing

My light, my light


I just don't understand

the problem at hand

I'm just a nuisance am I right


I mean honestly

why can't you see

the pointlessness for me to survive


I just need to

have no feelings

so I won't have to keep repeating

the mistakes that I made

to care about all the hate

so I can keep myself from stealing

My light, my light



So please oh please

just let me leave

this plane of existence I writhe upon


Don't make me stay

It's just better this way

let me end it tonight