Possession Of My Heart Poem by Eli J Tod

i wish that i could tell you
about this feeling so strong
but i know it cant be true
it feels so right it must be wrong

i want you to be my one
i know that i am my only
i want you when the day is done
but its just me in the morning

i wish that i could let you know
just how i feel inside
but my words, they come so slow
i think this time ill let it slide

i try again to tell you
this possession of my heart
i want everything between us true
dancing away from you is my art

sometimes i wish to tease you
to tickle you and make you laugh
sometimes i lose control and i do
as you know, good girls finish last

this contradiction inside my head
it gives my heart thrills and misery
i want you to want me instead
so i keep my distance, to wait and see

i try and sever this strange attachment
why is this heart of mine pounding so hard?
i try and achieve great detachment
it is now your turn to call the card

'Bull' you say-you know me too well
i say nothing is up, nothing is wrong
you know all the stories i have to tell
except this damn feeling so strong

the one thing i hide from you
the reason i break our gaze
i am afraid that you will see the truth
i just cant say it to your face

i dont want to mess with
our friendship so special to me
i have no regrets
i am just on a word tangent/spree

now you have a new girl
a lovely little sprite
i know she rocks your world
i still wish you were mine

as thoughts jump on the page
i tremble thinking of you reading them
will your reaction to me be pity or rage?
i dont think i could stand either of them

the fact that you could keep me here
in this hell i long to leave
when i think of it i shake with fear
i am my own-i want to believe

sometimes when you look at me
i think of your lips on mine
when this is all i can see
i know i must dance for a time