R.I.P Clark Poem by Aubrey Rhoades

I heard the news today

That you decided to go away

I wish you had decided to stay

So that I could tell you everythin is goin to be okay



Your life was a struggle

I know you were hurtin inside

but darlin everyone of us is hurtin now

now that your gone



Why did you decide to leave

why did you decide to go away



Im here standin in my tears

tryin to hold myself together

tryin to be strong for you



I can't do this anymore

Today, is your birthday

So this is a tribute to you



I miss your smile and how your eyes

would take away the anger in me

I may not have known you as well

but man you became my brother

my family my siblin



Im not whole without you

As I look round me all I can see is your eyes

Staring right back into this empty space

you would call my face



tryin to tell me that everythin will be okay

that I need to move on

and be the girl you knew I would be



We're both hurtin badly

tryin to hold back the hurt

bro why did you have to go

I hate myself for not reachin out to you



Im hurtin inside knowin that I was lied to

I wish I hadn't listened

I wish I would have spoken out when I dreamed

Now I know

Now I wanna just cry and never wake up



But I know thats not the life would have me lead

I miss you

I wish you could hold me in your arms and tell me

baby sis, its gonna be okay



Now I have to be strong for both of us

Now I have to look up to our brother

and hold him cause your not here to do so

and tell him its not his fault



He misses you,

He wishes he hadn't listened

His hurtin inside

dyin a little bit more each day

knowin he could have saved you

and you would be here today

We both are hurtin knowin we could have done

somethin if we had knew



We love ya bro

Hope where you are that you no longer feel the pain

No longer feeling sad

Or the consumention of hurt

I hope you will always know where ever you are

that you are loved and will never be forgotten