Racing Thoughts, All The Time Poem by amanda garcia

These racing thoughts in my head
Wont let me have peace in my own bed!
I just want to sleep
I just want to die.
All these scary thoughts make me want to cry!

I just want to sslice open my once
Beautiful skin
Now a catastrophe
I spread it open to sweet blasphemy
I know its a sin
But I cant stop once i start
Its like a spinning top that never stops!
Faster and faster as the time goes.
Deeper and deeper to rid of my emotional pain,

Feel my body go through much greater pain
Is just a substitute
To my thoughts this is exciting
But
To my heart it is homicide

But there is no other way to make
The racing thoughts sujbside!
People can never see how I actually
feel from the outside
A wall of the untrue blues
Is covering me completely

SO no one can see the true part of me...