Random Thoughts Poem by show me the glint of light on broken glass

How do you defend yourself when rightfully attacked?
When your tolerance for pain is not enough for what you deserve.
And Even so... are you a fool to watch
just watch as it attacks?
And if deep inside you truley believe you’re worthless...what do you say to the one who screams
telling you you’re nothing.
What... is exactly what I don’t know
and feel is impossible to find
but here I am waiting for it to come and eat me
and i’m afraid I won’t deny
cause as rightfull or unjust as it may be
pain
it hurts still the same in every cause

It hurts to be alive right now
A bit more than usual
My eyes are stinging begging for darkness
But i know that i must stay awake
She’s on her ride to hell and back right now
The simple thought of it all
is much too unbearable
To even imagine
And I’d wish so bad that by her return
I’d already found my way out of here
And whithout regrets or guilt
I could quickly make for my escape
Go ahead pray in vein
Cause tomorrow and the next
I be here
The same
Yes unchanged