Red Twilight Poem by Andrius Anonymouse

I walk along this dark road
Thinking of what I've become
Of everything I've done
I just can't believe you are gone..

The rain is falling,
The pain is growing..
Every time I close my eyes
I see blood
Falling on me from the sky

These dreams are killing me
These memories are eating me
I just can't find any reason left for me
To fight this twisted agony..

The cold rain pouring from the sky
Chilling my heart till it barely survives
I can't feel anything but sorrow and pain
Every single effort is always in vain...

Ten years ago when I was seven
Was that bloody day
Full of sorrow and pain

You're dying body in my hands
'Please.. Please I beg you, don't die! ! ' I miserably cry
'Don't give up on you're life..
Even when there's no hope for this world..'
Her words were barely a whisper to my ears
And with the first and last kiss, came her last breath.

I left her near the red apple tree
To go back, to the place we used to be
I see blood on the ground,
being washed away by the rain
And dead bodies lying besides the lake

A vision opens up behind my eyes
*He cuts her throat and she falls on the ground
Rage, madness, shocking coldness claws inside my fragile soul
I stab, I slice
Till they all lay motionless on the ground*

I close my eyes, terrified
'Was that me? '
I can't decide
But my blood stained body is all the evidence I need
'What have I've become? ' I cry deeply...

I pull my knife from his dead body flesh,
Blood still pulsing from the woulds I gave
Feeling numb from the cold that grips my heart
Remembering of all the close friends that recently died..

'Andrey.. Vlad.. Lev.. Red.. and Nastia..
why.. WHY DID YOU GIVE AWAY YOU'RE LIVES FOR ME! ?
I NEVER ASKED YOU TO! Why did you had to sacrifice for me...
why.. WHY! ! Why-yy...'

The sky is clearing
The sun, turning dark clouds red
To remind of all the blood that soaked my hands

'There's just.. nothing else left for me to fight for anymore..'
I twist my knife and stab my self
Feeling cold ripples going throw my flesh
And I break down to my knees..

'Promise me...'
The voice whispers silently in my mind
'I promise...' I whisper sorrowfully into the red cold sky..
With a knife deep in my side...