Regret Poem by Kristina Louisa Carr

I still see your face appearing to me like a wave
Senses are still tuned to the scent of your aftershave
The white towel you have left behind in the shower
Remains like a withered memory or a pressed flower

I experience more sad days now since you've been gone
The most difficult time I have without you is right at dawn
Settling in for the night you no longer by my side right here
Often I scream silently hoping for everyone to overhear

At night sometimes I wake up afraid of the new day to come
With your visions in my mind repetitive like the beat of a drum
There are no more tears left to cry over you going away
Nothing left to say there is silence around me every day

I will try to forget the smile you gave me each morning
You took it away with you and I feel as in mourning
In time I know I will get better at this missing you less
But for the time being I am desolate and in great distress

It may appears selfish to bathe in self pity and hurt
But right now I am just barely holding on very inert
It was me saying that love is just an imaginary emotion
Now I'm paying for it and my life goes by in slow motion

I wish I could take back my analytical point of view
But I can't and you would not believe it although it's true
You said that my heart is frozen and you have no heat left
You don't know that it was you that took it with a theft