Rest In Peace? Poem by Tricia D'cruz

I SAW DRUGS, AS MY COMFORT
I SAW MONEY, AS MY HAPPINESS
I SAW BRAGGING, AS CONFIDENCE
DID I REALLY? I WISH I HADN’T

I SAW MY FAMILY, AS A NUISENCE
I SAW FRIENDS, AS COMPETITION
I SAW STRANGERS, AS NON-EXISTENT
DID I REALLY? I WISH I HADN’T

I SAW CHEATING, AS SURVIVAL
I SAW LYING, AS AN ESCAPE
I SAW PRIDE, AS UNIMPORTANT
DID I REALLY? I WISH I HADN’T

NOW, I SEE MY LIFE, EMPTY AS A RUSTY CAN
SOON I’LL CLOSE MY EYES, MY TIME IS COMING TO AN END
I SEE NO ONE, FAMILY OR FRIENDS
ONLY A STRANGER, NURSING A DYING MAN

I NEVER SAW HAPPINESS, FELT NO COMFORT
INSTEAD, I WAS qTHE NUISANCE, ALMOST NON-EXISTENT
I’M NOT A SURVIVOR, THIS TIME THERE’S NO ESCAPE
IF ONLY I HAD PRIDE, BUT NOW IT’S TOO LATE

I SEE DARKNESS, AT THE OTHER END
A LONELY PATHWAY, WITH NO LOVE IN MY HANDS
I SEE MYSELF, A SAD DEAD MAN
WITH SO MUCH REGRET, AND NO TIME TO MEND..