Ripples In Spine Poem by Mehta Hasmukh Amathaal

Many years have passed since then
You were insisting to join me often
It used to send me ripples in spine
But I was comfortable and feeling fine

My heart beats used to rise alarmingly
I was not in sad state but felt warmly
You had deep sense of pride and honor
I was unable to stand even on floor

Yet I was very much dreaming
She was like home coming
I never thought she may vanish all of sudden
I had no slightest idea even

I did not dare to open my mind
I could see lines on her face and find
It revealed me untold truth
It needed no words or proof

I have no regret of loosing her
She was always willing to come here
The luck would have it and she was gone
I remained cut off as things remained undone

Even today I feel she belonged to me
Even though I was not totally free
She may be seen several times nearby
I never intended to see her or try

Her close association would have made me sink
I was never out of touch and it made me think
I thought of old acquaintance but brushed aside
It was improper for me to go so much wide

I had cried several nights
I don’t know whether it was wrong or right
Yet I felt her absence as great loss
She meant to be precious jewel as she was

If ever I could disclose to her about my desire
It should not have been proved satire
I remained alone through out
I learnt it wisely what the life is all about