Ruined. Poem by Katie Porter

This control you still,
Seem to have over me,
Scares me, excites me,
But then I remember,
The nights are cold,
And oh so lonely,
Cos your not here,
You said your goodbyes,
Those times, been and gone,
Never to return again,
Your memory is all,
That remains with me,
Those so happy times,
Play fights, bedtime cuddles,
Cos I ruined it,
All gone because of,
A few stupid moments,
I’ve lived to regret,
The truest love ruined,
I’ll never find someone,
Who I love as much you,
And you won’t even,
Acknowledge I exist anymore.