Running Poem by i am not crazy

I’m wounded badly
Struggled so much to be your star
But that dream seems impossible for me
Knowing your distance from me is too far
My affections for you is truly undying
Sturdy as a castle’s wall
And beneath your throne is where I’m lying
Hiding from you to not see it all
For there I am helpless and impure
Shaking to death as I grow insecure
Putting a stop grabbing a knife to stab myself through
cherishing each word by telling how much I love you
It seems that I am still not much to be yours
All seems drifting away blending to undefined mores
And useless I may seem and forever untouched
Still I want you to know I love you so much
Maybe then I’ll have a chance for you to love me back
And fulfill and occupy whatever I lack
It’s so stupid, I know and it’s all so vain
But this is something I cannot further more explain
I keep turning and turning, predicting like a crystal ball
How I wish I could halt and run from it all