Save Me From Myself Poem by King Njoroge

I try to escape
From what I'm yet to see
Always on the run
Is it emotions I'm terrified of?
Is it the ghosts of a past I don't want to re-live?
Is it that I'm just too scared to be grounded?
Questions...these questions don't have an end
They keep me up at night
I can't sleep in the morning
A new day...more like just another day in this prison
My prison, my life
Seated looking at the magnificent sunset
Please take me with you
To the land of unknown pleasures
Take me to paradise
Take me now, take me away
I can feel you reaching out
I feel it in the cold
I get up but you are gone
You were never there
I thought we had something special
So attached to this dream I do not see it coming
I don't see it turn into a nightmare
I can't...Am I dead yet?
Why is it so dark?
Is this my soul?
I cringe when I know of what is in front of me
When I know for sure
Is this the end?
Why is it not rest assuring?
They said it is peaceful there
They continued to no end that it was going to be beautiful
Was it all a lie?
Was it all just one big lie?
This hole in my heart
This blackness in my sleep
Why was I blind to all this?
Was it my fault?
Did I see it coming?
Did I brush it off?
I saw it, I embraced it
No tears for the brave
Just a facade
All of it...Deception at its best
Save me...I don't want this anymore
Please, don't let go
I am after all just human...