My Beast Poem by King Njoroge

How long will I stay on this ledge?
I wish I could just jump off
Keep falling in the pit of no return
Watching helplessly as life gets sucked out of me
God this is frustrating
I can't keep having bits
I need it all
I need it so bad
You can't keep dangling it in front of me
We all know I'm destined to fail you
Make it peaceful
I don't want it to hurt
Because I'm afraid I won't take the pain
I see it in your eyes
You are just as afraid
Of what I will do with it
You can't control me anymore
You can't keep shielding me from the world
When it calls and calls until I give in
Nothing can stop it
It grows inside me
I can't tell whether to shower love upon it
Or detest the curse it brought on my head
It's almost coming out
I can feel the distress
I see the darkness
Everything is fading in the wind
Did I just take the leap?