Scandel Poem by Mike Banda

I stumble,
I fall,
I feel like running away.
But i find myself holding on yesterday.

My light is fading fast,
There is so much left to say
The weight of my past hunts me down again.

I'm sorry,
For many times your voice echoed the air,
But i was too caught up i couldn't hear,
I danced under the moonlight,
Forgetting that you were the light.

You searched for me,
But i always ran away,
I found merry in just been me,
And when you found me, i push you away.

I'm sorry,
When you knocked on the doors my heart,
I shut and locked the doors of my heart,
For i felt you were the popo,
And all you wanted was to shut down my party.

You name the SIN i did it,
Loving the taste of it,
I fall in love and couldn't get out,
I sank in the snacking place i lived without,
Without church, and without Bible.

I'm a retched man,
And i don't belong anywhere near you,
But your hand is still out,
And you say "come has i am"

I don't know why you want me,
When i don't want me,
I feel like Judas,
For many times have i betrayed you.

Mike Iscariot, a fraud, sinner,
Who took his sin and tried to entomb it.
Only to find out my sin was too heavy couldn't carry it.

I hope someday i will stop to try to carry my weight of my past,
Because all he wanted from me was me,
He took my shame,
He took my lost,
And you I Forgive you, when hang on that cross,
I'm sorry for every time i left you,
The scandal is my SIN,
And the ending is your liberation.