Scared To Lose Poem by Annabelle Heart

So scared to lose what I once had,
I pushed away to leave you first.
Now never know what might have been,
To just go back and let you in.

Your arms were home.
Once in life I was complete.
With matching hearts a steady beat,
I left as I was scared to lose.
You could have broke me shattered or refused.

Trusting yields a power deep.
Yielding leaves an open heart.
It may be soothed and ever well,
Or it may bleed and break and swell.
Trusting never works for me,
I closed my heart and pushed away.

My rearview mirror pains me,
Haunts me, ever taunts.
My Fears caused what I feared most...
Your deadened eyes, now lingering ghost.
To hear your words of giving up.
They hurt as much as I dreamed of.
And I know, I pushed you there.

I do regret it,
every day