Second Chance`at Christmas Poem by Kevin Carney

I guess you have to see the humor in this…
So silent in thought…
Rejected and feeling so hurt…
Christmas right around the corner.
Too the much the pain and loneliness I felt…
Will I get through this holiday?
It was the feeling I wasn’t going to make it.

Looking through the bookstore…
More melancholy with every word I browsed.
Maybe it wasn’t the smartest place to wind up.
Still I just had to Christmas shop…
No matter the mood,
I just had to do it…

Christmas too near,
the last minute gifts…
The pressure within,
I wasn’t going to fail anyone in the end.
My love’s present still in my pocket…
Still not knowing what to do with it in the end….
I just thought about tossing it out into the snowy night…
Still I have it maybe,
I was just afraid…
I wouldn’t have something for her …
Just in case she came back before Christmas Day…

I don’t know maybe it was in the spirit of Christmas…
Maybe it was an act of God…
Could it been just the look of sadness at that time…
You came around the corner and bumped into me…
I don’t know where you came from…
I didn’t really care…

Were you an angel sent from above?
I don’t think so with those pierces on your lip…
Your body might have been heavenly,
but you were no angel…
Just look at the way you dressed…
Not sure of where to go,
you smiled and started to talk….
Such a soft spoken, girl you seemed…

Still I wondered where you came from.
I just had to take notice of what you said…
You don’t do well on the holidays,
you feel so alone…
It’s the same as I was feeling right then.
Two lost souls just meeting by chance…
We talked about writing,
we talked life and how cruel it can be…
So easy it was, just,
like we might have known each other in a past time…

We talked and talked…
So easy our words flowed…
It was like we already knew each other…
We shared memories of childhood past…
Talking so easily of past dreams and faded hopes….
I heard every word you said…
You listened to I every word I expressed…

Was this chance, the meeting of the two us?
Laughter and bright shiny eyes…
The night waning,
loosing all track of time…
Still holding on,
the two of us not wanting it to end.
Almost like we would disappear in the night’s snow.
As the store closed…

Slowly I walked you to your car…
So cold and snowy,
I think neither of us cared…
Still so bewildered how we came about on this night…
How easily we fit together and yet so different we are…
Both lost souls,
fearing Christmas and what it holds…
On that path that neither of us dared to go.
Losing the joy and hope this time of year.

Did someone send you to me?
Did someone send me to you?
It’s so strange we are both blinded for now from our sadness…
As you reach your car,
you gave me a kiss on the cheek.
You mentioned we must get together for Christmas…
You gave me your number, with me doing the same…
I promise that we would and walk away…

Never has this happened to me…
Is it a new belief, from two lost souls?
Can you see the humor of this?
Isn’t this so ironic in a way?
What will Christmas Day bring?
Maybe a second chance to see light again...
What a gift this could be....