Self Harm- What Would I Be Without You? Poem by Cati Walthall

Self Harm- What Would I Be Without You?

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When I cover my scars
I'm no longer the emo one
I'm no longer that girl with cuts on her arms
No longer the shadow that covers the sun
Strangers can't ask me what happened
Because they can't see my scars
They can't judge me for what I've done
and they can't judge me for what I'm going to do
because under the sleeves there's a really big secret
but that's none of their business
No matter what they think

I can't walk out my front door without long sleeves
I can't pretend they aren't there
even when everyone else leaves
I know what I've done
And I refuse to forgive myself
because for one second if I learn to let go
I will never remember the lesson I've been taught
The scars are more than old cuts
They remind me of who I was
If I learn to let go
Who would remind me I've failed?
but also tells me to get back up?
Who would I be today
Without covering all the scars?
Who would I be today
If I never had cut?

POET'S NOTES ABOUT THE POEM
I cut. I've burned. I pull out hair. I've had suicidal thoughts and I've tried them too... My life seems to revolve around selfharm... so what would i do without it? Would I be happy? or would i still be the same sad person i am today, minus the scars and bald spots from pulling hair
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Cati Walthall

Cati Walthall

Urbana, IL
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