Self Hate Poem by Kwenadi Gaaje

Feeling of resentment,forlornness and doubt.. Knowing you're not okay,yet okay.. Feeling down but not being able to cry... Cuts deep...
Depression,you have made your statement...i felt your presence,lost myself trying to fight you..

Bled myself to bed for I couldn't stand your emotional blackmail..
I heard your screams,your lyrics made it self home to my heart,poisoned my mind so you can have your way in me.. Cracked mirrors of my walls trying to stay away from myself..

Dear self-hate I heard you,felt you,almost believed you were love to cherish, but you taught me to bury my joy and embrace agony.. You call yourself a friend yet! My misery bring you closer to my heart...
How do you call yourself a friend when all you do is to mock me? Torment me in anyway you can? Dear self-hate leave me alone.. Is that too much to ask?