Selfishness Poem by Heather Ladd

Running from self
From Life
From others
From the world and God

But why
What good does that do
Only to merely exist
A hollow shell of survival

To the ultimate bottom
How low can one go
What the hell
I ended up in hell

Heaven and hell
A place within the soul
It's a soul journey
Inward, out

Outward, in
Selfish to the core
Mean, rude
Cold as ice

Without a care in the world
Caring so much
The pain and destruction I caused
I continue to cause myself and others

Inside is chaos
All throughout
Selfish to the core
Good and bad

Fine line in selfishness
Selfishness in my use of any substance
Addicted to anything that feels good
Selfish for my recovery

Do what you need to get through
Learn to follow
Before learning to lead
Do the do

It is what it is
Bad choices
Decisions
Mistakes

All life's lessons
Doesn't have to be so rough
The first page is blank for a reason
'I just don't know it all'

I don't have a clue how to fully live
Only how to barely survive
Ready to move forward
Learn and grow

From the bottom up
One must go
Sideways in circles
We all flow

We're so different
Yet so much alone
Grab a hold of your bike
And ride alongside me

I'll catch you when you fall
And help you back up
Open and honest
Willingness is a must

Thank you for you
God save me from me
Yearning to be of service
Carrying out your will

Shining Your light
For the next behind me
As You flow through me
Your love will overflow

Life jackets
Bombarded
Woke as can be
Or not
Either way we will see