Shattered Dreams Poem by Pitta Sudarshan Dev

Feelings that never experienced haunting me every minute

She was my dream love that remained unexpressed

It was a sweet dream and an eager yearning for few days,

Her chubby cheeks in her childhood that I carried all along Shimmer before my eye

And I longed to kiss them when I meet her as my bride

Her hair locks that I plucked her to tease teased me for few days as they would be ones to resurrect feeling sensual

I remembered her to play hip hop in little slip-ons and my senses felt her growth all the years with her slip-on on

Two decades passed by and dreams grown along with her age

And she was absent before my eyes but ever present in my mind's eye.



The day I decided to meet her and ask her to be mine and I felt a strange feeling

And I endured those sweeter thoughts for few months and it all made the difference.



Alas! I found a colorful envelope in my mail box one evening
and I sat down at the gate as my heart felt a blow that thumped it down

It was her wedding invitation and I was invited cordially and resigned with tears of farewell to my dreams and thoughts.

I tried to bury my thoughts in time capsule and wished and prayed for her cheerful wedded life

And wished ‘He' would be better than me in all aspects and I took a different lass in wedding swearing that I desire no one till death do us apart.

Years passed by, met her twice in five years and showed my wife, the queen who reigned supreme before her arrival.

And I wondered to know later as I learned from my wife that she felt the same as revealed to her and my heart smiled and ventured to forget and I did.



Alas! A great shock that traveled through telephone cables reached my ears that she became single again

The nature is so unjust that she lost her husband in an unnatural death.

My dreams shattered again, my wishes blown off

And I cannot break my oath and stop not endures the pain for her.

But I want to do something as a token of my thoughtfulness for her.

But what I can do?