Silence Poem by Princy Prince

How could i live with a pain from the past?
The pain that almost kills me day and night
Its deep in my heart and it wont go away
It stirs up my emotions and puts me in bed

I am trying to put on a mask and pretend its not there
But its so hard to hide my anger and tears
I suffer alone and nobody is really there
But i wish they were here

Sharing my abuse, they wish they did not hear
Or asking me, is this real or a delusion?
How do i cope, day after day?
When the frustration and pain gets in the way

standing on the end of the cliff
Why bother, why carry on?
Knowing these thoughts are just not right
My abuser knows i would not win

No hatred for my innocence stolen
No cure for the depression in me
Sexually abused the second time
At age 19, no one really knew the pain

If they were ever caught,
A slap on their wrist
Is all they would get
Leaving me crippled inside my head