Since You Said Goodbye Poem by H.M. Gautsch

There's been an emptiness,
Inside of me.
It's hard to explain it.
I should be over you by now.
It's been over two years,
But my heart continues to disavow.
Loved ones come and go.
Because I can't seem to find,
What I'm searching for.

Discovering you with a new lover.
I've tried,
But I can't shed a new exposure,
From this old pain, this torture.
This treasure keeps digging deeper,
In some sand, off an island.
I'd go and hunt for my own gem,
But I seem to have lost the map.

Since you said goodbye,
I seem to have lost my pride.
I'm still waiting for,
You to come through the door.
My heart is too young to die,
But it hasn't been able to revive,
I've force myself to mingle,
But I haven't been able,
To take a bite,
Instead I only nibble.
Since you said goodbye.

If only you knew of the heart,
You borrowed.
How it's become this morbid art,
From all the storms it's weathered,
The blind love it wallowed,
And all the thorns it's severed.
Lost love, not long ago,
I thought I found the one.
Was I a fool to fall for your status quo?

Very few know me through and through,
The few I've let in.
Construe of the scars,
Buried skin deep like tattoos.
Not meant to be removed,
But to shape my heart that's allude,
To the heavens', all the while, subdued.
Until then, it remains black and blue.
All because of me not getting over you.

Since you said goodbye,
I seem to have lost my pride.
I'm still waiting for,
You to come through the door.
My heart is too young to die,
But it hasn't been able to revive,
I've force myself to mingle,
But I haven't been able,
To take a bite,
Instead I only nibble.
Since you said goodbye.

Why I don't want to get involved,
My heart still aches,
Screaming, 'It's only your fault,
when the relationships fall.'
I need to quit trying so hard,
Stop hiding behind this charred heart.
Focus on the nurture of things,
And not the nature it brings.


©H.M. Gautsch