Sleeplessness Poem by susette varga

Sleep disorder
Insomnia
Get no sleep
Never rest
Lethargic daily
Low on energy
Irritable
Depressed
Never ending
Psychological stress
Always anxious
Cannot focus
Emotional
Tense
Such a mess
No self worth
No sex drive
Loss of libido
No recognition
Of who i once was
Avoid all mirror's
Not good enough
The sedatives
Soothe me
Keep all at bay
Calm me down
Like it that way
Happy pills
I so adore
Euphoria
Feel good again
This is the person
I truly am
I look in the mirror
I love who i see
A handsome man
Stares back at me
Now i remember
The man that i am
Smiling i reach out
Before he is gone
Momentarily ecstatic
To see him once more
Aware i am crashing
Heart hits the floor
Zopivane
Where are you?
I need some more
Please come and find me
I'm on the way down
Self loathing
creeps slowly
Finds a way in
Weakness my forte
Profound effect
Emergence of symptoms
Controlled when you're near
Reappear with reprisal
When you disappear
Fear over takes me
I need you here
Calm is restored
Thank God you're back
Hopelessly addicted to your
Seductiveness
I love you completely
And your restorative ways
There is nothing on Earth
Can thrill me like you
Hypnotised
I am under your spell
Stay with me sweety
My sugar coated pill
Please never leave me
Forever i'm yours