Slow Poison / Slow Venom.... Poem by Ambika Nair

What was my fault..
was it that i didn't confront u in d beginning itself..
but am sure that u knew it..
the only wrong thing that u did was
if she was in your life before me then why did u keep poking me throughout...
u should have just told me then & there
had u just left me d way i was probably d wound wouldn't have been so deep...
u kept me always hoping...
u made me dream soo much that i almost thought that they were going to be true.. & then
u just dropp me from such a height...
or else even if she came after me what went wrong i want to know..
u shouldn't have done this...
though i will never blame u...
i will allow u to choose whatever makes u happy..
& if it is this then so be it..
how much ever pain i have to bear i would bear it for u...
I have done it before i will do it even now...
but the only difference between then & now is that..
then i still lived on hopes...today i have nothing to live for
there were soo many things that i wanted to tell u but its better left unspoken now...
u have no idea of...
how much u mean to me...
how important u r to me..
how much 'i love u'
u don't know anything...just nothing
I feel bad & angry that u misunderstood it to b a crush! !
'crush' was an understatement
now u would realise y did i get angry with u
u were my..
air that i breathe..
my food, my home, my water...my everything...
i just cant figure out what am i gonna do without u...
there was never i day wen i didn't think of u...
today am afraid of thinking of u..will it cause me more pain...
i can't even think of anyone other than u...
my body was sooo immune to u..
i guess i have lost d power to love
i don't think i can ever love anyone else in my life...
it is IMPOSSIBLE....
my only request to u is that don't ever hurt this gal as u have done to me...
not everyone is the same...see to it that not a single dropp of tear falls off her eye...
& u don't have to treasure anymore of our friendship neither of me...
i know that these words r 'words of sympathy'...
i wont force u to b by my side always...
i will go away from your life silently & hope to never come back..
but i will always carry our memory with me in my heart...
dying with poison that 'U' induced in me would always be a pleasure....
i only wish that instead of a venom had it been love...
the venom is spreading all through my body..
& i don't know how far i can walk with it....
i will always love u till my last breath....
FLY AWAY MY ANGEL U R FREE......................
I LOVE U & ALWAYS WILL....The unspoken was also spoken today......