So Confused: / Poem by lily santiago

I been hurt so many times
I cant even imagine what love is like
I been trying so hard
its just a failure in my part
I lay in my bed
thinking how can I let this happen again
I cry myself to sleep every night hopeing one day you would wake up and know im right
I wouldent do nothing to hurt you, caus I just love you
I cant Think of life with out you
when I try I just miss you
I wanna tell you how I feel
But I know you wont understand
Feelings come from My heart
Its not a game
like everything in your life quit playing
Not Even a day
I was already being played
seeing you and her
I was just so hurt
Held in my feelings so you wont know
All This Stress Im Going through and its all caus you
pretending i was good
knowing i was sad
smilling Everyday
even when i was Mad
I Just dont know what to think
My head is so confused
you said you loved me
So how could you?