Somber Poem by Jean Eugene Guan

Dark and abandoned,
My mistletoe is empty under.
I'm alone and misty,
My heart is cold, as snow falls
In my windowpane. I'm paler
Ever than before paler.
Stranger, I don't know why I feel somber.
I don't know anymore what is life,
I'm alone, I'm stifling from my loneliness.
I don't know how to keep things together.
I'm somber, alone in Christmas
this December.

The fireplace is well-flamed.
The only warmth that
I will feel the whole lonely night.
Fighting far more insanity
Then you left me.
I can see my candle light
Flaming as it glows.
Free me from this somberness
and show me how to live again.

I'm bare and I'm hurt,
I'm burned and I'm bruised.
I'm abandoned and I'm absurd.
My feelings are colder and lower.
This Christmas is the saddest
time of the year.
I'm the only one, poignant.
The saddest for you're not here.

When will you be back?
I'll be waiting underneath our mistletoe.
How long shall it take you?
I know you'll not make it,
I know.
You don't want me, you don't love me.
And it's hard to face that fact.
That even this Christmas,
A heart is broken crack.

My love will still be glowing,
As a star that wades in the sky.
You know far better.
My love will never die.
This Christmas time is for giving,
Forgiving and forgetting.
So hard to let you go
but I did it for you to be glad.
I did it all to make you contented,
And sacrificed all I had.
I hope that you'll be happy now.
I'll be jovial for you too.
And even though I know
you don't love me.
You still know that I do.

My final message ‘tis I tell you.
For I'll be gone from now on.
I hope that you'll remember me,
My memory shall be carried on.
This Christmas; it will be over.
For I'll be gone away.
Never to be somber,
Never to be astray.
My heart cannot contain it,
I can take this life anymore.
I will be gone forever,
You'll see me no more.