Some Unhealthy Self Examining Poem by Kate Kate

I waste my time in the mirror
Hoping to notice something I like
The more I look the less looks right
I don't know what to do
I stare and stare
And the more I look the more I loath
I don't want too
Theres nothing wrong with me
So why can't I see that?
Why can't I beleive that?

Everyday I pick myself apart
I compare myself to you
You're always beautiful
You're always better
I always feel so low
And I yell at myself
Because I should be beautiful too
And I yell at myself
Cause I don't know what else to do

Every once and a while some one aims the word beautiful at me
It strikes me hard but doesn't stick
For some reason I don't beleive
To me its some sort of trick
The days go on
Nothing really changes
But nothing really stays put
The insecurity grows
And the certainty l once had goes

Everyday I pick myself apart
I compare myself to you
You're always beautiful
You're always better
I always feel so low
And I yell at myself
Because I should be beautiful too
And I yell at myself
Cause I don't know what else to do

I feel so low
I feel so ugly
I feel so big
I just want to feel pretty