Speechless Poem by Eman Awad

I try to find words to go,
with whatever the thing i've been meaning to say.
And all of my feelings show,
my tongue is so tied that i wish i could fly away.
Now i'm not shy anymore,
but still i can't find the words properly.
Wish he can see me as before,
and i really wish he can understand me.
I'm speechless like that or otherwise,
and i'm losing all that used to be a grace.
Used to stand in silence before his eyes,
and now it seems like i don't know his face.
I didn't arrive here all by my self,
there was a time when things had meaning.
I can't find words and i need help,
still, nothing makes sense even dreaming.
And in my world,
only my dream at night gets me going.
I'm a lonely girl,
standing helpless and my flaws are showing.
I had a life inside of me,
and a favourite song that rhymes it along.
Now i'm dead inside and i see,
absloutely no one saying, be strong.
So, i fight on my own,
like ever since the day i met me.
I wanted to be alone,
so that it won't hurt when he forgets me.
And if my life will be hard,
i know i won't be always like this.
Some day they'll get my heart,
and understand the beauty in my lonliness.