Spilling More Of Me Poem by Zaphod Neun

I'm trying to find what I feel

It's hard with pains that never heal

I cared so long for someone else

that I don't remember how to care about myself

Things are too confusing now

I want to know but don't know how

to know exactly how I feel

I can't get past these pains that won't heal



I'm spilling more of me

I try so hard to see

This pain I feel inside

reflects most of my life



I wish I wouldn't have gotten involved

But the old me would have never dissolved

I wonder if that matters now

I try to feel but forget how

If I do something to get in touch

I reach the pains that are too much

to bare but if I don't persue

my feelings I can't explain to you



I'm spilling more of me

I try too hard to see

This pain I feel inside

Reflects most of my life

I'm spilling more of me

The one who wants to be

The one who wants to help

but cannot help himself