Stop The Lies Poem by Midnight Blues

You hurt me when I'm awake.
You hurt me in my dreams.
You lie to me consistently 
You lie to yourself so many years.
When does this stop....
Open you heart to me.
When are you going to trust me...
& understand that I'll never going to break that trust.
Like you have with me so many times,
Throughout our journeys..
Can't you see this is the final straw for me.
I'm sick of crying 
I'm sick of lies
I'm sick of hurting all this time.
Smoking weed just numbs the thoughts & feelings...
But comes back again.
So then I roll another to numb it all again...
Is that my life...?
Yes indeed
I don't want that for myself.
I want a lot more then that..
I want stability.
I want to live life comfortably,
For you & our family...
You say to me that you want the same as me
But now it's almost 7 years..
We've been doing the same old thing...
I'm getting tired with this
Because I want more for my family...
Then what we have right now.
I thought you wanted the same as me
Or those are lies as well...?
Stop lying to yourself
Stop lying to me
& stop lying to your family...
We don't lie to you my dear.
All we do is give pure love & honesty
& that's what we want from you my dear.
Is it hard for you to do,
to be honest to your family...?
Explain to me so I can understand
& just maybe we can keep us together as a family,
Like it's meant to be...